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MeToo:Memoir on my Third Actual Sexual Relationship with the Karmapa |
Memoir on my Third Actual Sexual Relationship with the Karmapa Here, I would like to explain the causes, the process and the influences of the third sexual incident of my relationship with Karmapa. First of all, I’d like to describe the remote causes and proximate causes of the third actual sexual relationship with the Karmapa. 1-Remote causes 1-1-I was Still Not Awake Since the second sexual relationship with Karmapa, then I still continued to indulge in the relationship with Karmapa and I could not leave the immoral relationship. After that second sexual relationship, he has not cared more about me. Instead, he replied to me with short message and his manner was more perfunctory. His messages were only thrown out one or two words, which made me feel like being abandoned immediately after playing and manipulation. 1-2-Karmapa Tortured His Girlfriend Karmapa never seriously talked about breaking up, and he was extremely inactive in replying messages after sexual relations, and he has been responding in a delayed manner, saying “it is not convenient now”, “now seeing guests”, “someone is now around”, “I am sick”, “Let’s see”, “Today is very busy”, “Talk after two days”, “Not tonight”, “Will look for you at night” and then disappeared at night, “Wait”, “I will call you later” but then there is no phone call, and so on. Excuses for the procrastination were varied. On July 11, 2018, I was asked to go back to Hong Kong. On July 17, 2018, Karmapa said: “We have had a chance. Don’t force it again.” After that, we talked on phone, and he immediately changed his command and said, “Don’t go back first.” In fact, during the period of time between the second sexual intercourse and the third sexual intercourse, two of us have not had a video meeting once. The ambiguous relationship has caused emotional confusion for me. 1-3-Karmapa Moved His Girlfriend Since the Karmapa’s one sentence of words to command me to “Go to Chicago”, he has dominated my destiny. I lived like his puppet. On July 24, 2018, I flew to Chicago alone. The Karmapa moved me to a remote place. 2-Proximate Causes A Message from Karmapa I have not woken up, though I suffered from physical and mental torture, and I continued to fall into the entangled relationships and was unable to extricate myself. On August 6, 2018, he suddenly sent a message to me and said, “(I) want to see you.” A single simple message has made me want to have a move again. 3-Process 3-1-Karmapa Has not Closed Hotel Room Door On August 7, 2018, Karmapa sent a message texting me the address of a hotel. On August 8, 2018, he let me book a hotel room in Baccarat Hotel, Manhattan, New York. At 8:37PM on the same day, I checked in and stayed at Room 407. On August 9, 2018, at 3:30AM in the morning, he sent a message commanding me to go to room 502, his hotel room. At that time, the door was not guarded by anybody. The door of the Karmapa’s hotel room has not been closed. He has only used the anti-theft door buckle to place in the door gap. Anyone can get into his room easily as long as they push the door. 3-2- Karmapa Commanded me to Hide in Toilet At 3:34AM in the morning on August 9, 2018, he ordered me to hide in his hotel room toilet and close the door, but “the outside door should not be closed”. I have listened to him and hide myself in the toilet. 3-3-Karmapa Commanded me to Kneel Down to Listen to his Preaching At 3:39 in the morning on August 9, 2018, Karmapa returned to the room and he told me to get out of the toilet. He sat on the bench located at the end of the bed and ordered me to kneel down. I kneeled down in front of him, opening my arms holding around his waist. I was already very sleepy, and so I closed my eyes while listening to him preaching. On June 18, 2018, Karmapa blamed me for being a nun and not listening to him, so I have always been confused about whether I should leave the nun’s role. The message he sent through LINE is as follows: “I told you before. Don’t be a nun. You haven’t listened to me.” On August 9, 2018, Karmapa told me to go back to Hong Kong to teach people Tibetan language. He told me: “As long as you are a bodhisattva, you can wear nun clothes.” I have always been confused in deciding whether should leave the nun’s role or not when things happened like that. He finally gave me a direct response. 3-4- Having Sex in Missionary Position After preaching, the Karmapa asked me if I wanted (to have sex), I then nodded. Later, we took off all the clothes and he had the third sexual intercourse with me while he has not been using a condom. The Karmapa has inserted his penis in the missionary position of man on top and woman below. He has not ejaculated. He then went to take a shower, and we dressed, and he took the initiative to put a thousand dollars for my room into the left pocket of my trousers. Then he took the door security guard away and left. I have been waiting for his LINE message so as to leave his room. At 4:22AM in the morning on August 9, 2018, he instructed me to “go down” to leave the room and “to close the door.” He told me to go to the room and to tell him once I returned to my room. At 4:27AM in that morning I sent a message to inform him I arrived at my hotel room. 4-Impacts 4-1-Attempted suicide As I always felt that he was playing with a lot of girls, I suffered from physical and mental distress. On October 16, 2018, I wrote a suicide note, and got ready to jump into river as he told me to do so. 4-2-My Faith Collapsed At that time, I thought: Just before I flew to the United States, he promised to let me follow him, like the Beijing girl who followed him every day. But after I arrived in the United States, he did not let me follow him. On July 3, 2018, when I suddenly visited his home, I saw three girls in his place. The feelings that I was being cheated were extremely strong. and I was very disappointed. I kept asking myself repeatedly: “Have he lied to me?”, “Is he cheating on me?” I still could not believe it. All previous devotion and faith to the Karmapa and Tibetan Buddhism has completely collapsed. 4-3-I Suffered from Depression My friend started to notice that I had moderate depression and she cared about me. I also asked them my own questions: “Did he lie to me?” I asked my friend, the house owner: “Did he lie to me?” She nodded. I was extremely sad and could not describe my sadness. 4-4-Finally Woke Up On the morning of October 19, 2018, after sharing my distress to older female friends, the friends immediately responded that he has been cheating on me and that he was a “big liar”. My friend said that he was a cynical playboy. In fact, I was also wrong. I have always been “infatuated” and “superstitious” and so I was deceived. My friend analyzed: In the future, if he is more free and more powerful, he can simply ask women to undress and do those things without having too much talk about it. A large group of women will then be waiting for him naturally. My friend advised me that such a person is not suitable for me, and advised me not to continue “superstition” and “infatuation”. My friend said that it was too easy for me to be deceived and she gave me a lot of advice. My friend said, “He told you to come to the United States, but did not arrange you well and care about you. What is it if it is not a lie? You don’t know who is around him. You don’t know what women are around him. So you don’t even have “now”. What do you talk about “future”? He did not honor the promise of giving you 10 million dollars. What is it if it is not cheating? A Bodhisattva will not tell anyone to go to die or jump into the river in order to make girlfriend. The King did not regard you as anyone, so you should think about how to go to the front road by yourself.” Finally, I am sure he lied to me, and I lied to myself. Recalling the whole process from virtual sex to actual sex in these eight years, I finally confirmed that this is a religious fraud case that involves deceptive seduction. 4-5-Being cyber bullied On January 23, 2019, “Mirror Media” reported the case of Jane Huang’s case of accusation on the sexual misbehavior against Karmapa. I also broke the news on my old Facebook, which led to Karmapa and others to get into my Facebook to defame and cyber bully me. So I decided to close the old Facebook. 4-6-Official Representative Took the Initiative to Contact Me Lodro Rinchen is the highest official representative to manage for the Karmapa scandal. On January 27, 2019, he conversed to me via messenger in order to settle the case. I requested compensation because of the emotional instability at first, but Lodro Rinchen asked me to give out all the information and evidences before we go into discussion about the possible damages. On the same night, my thoughts were calm, so I officially withdrew the claim for compensation from Lodro Rinchen. The official organization knew the things happened between the Karmapa and me. In addition, when Lodro Rinchen looked for me privately, he lied that Master Sik Hin Hung has made a call to him. He threatened me that if I disclosed the things of Karmapa, I would lose my job. The purpose of his act of collecting evidences is to look at my evidences and find loopholes so as to smear the victims and try to help the Karmapa to annihilate the sex scandal. 4-7- Other Karmapa Girlfriends Jointly Harmed Me From November 2018 to February 2019, different girlfriends of Karmapa has pretended to be victims and talked to me with fake accounts. The purpose was to collect information and defraud for the evidences of the case to find various loopholes for intimidation, attack, smear, or even defame, character assassinate in order to clean up the mess. 4-8-Willing to Warn the World with My Own Experience Since the incident has reached this point, I feel that it is more important to disclose the truth to the world to warn the world. At the same time, I am willing to testify for Jane Huang with what I have known and what I have experienced. #Metoo #Metoointibetanbuddhism #Thekarmapasexscandal MeToo Campaign to Expose and Stop Karmapa from Manipulating Women (karmaparapesbydeception.blogspot.com)
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